"There is no other reason for becoming good than to be happy and live a blessed life thereafter." Musonius
Pursuing wisdom is an admirable endeavor but keep working hard once you find one of its treasures -- pick up a shovel and start digging. Do not be like those who profess to be philosophers but expound concepts without producing anything tangible from them. What is the point of experts knowing what to say but not what to do? Isn't a book filled with Chrysippus's maxims worth very little?
Everybody inevitably experiences pain trying to reach one's goal. A person can experience pain striving to reach a goal through various actions, some fruitful, many inadequate. Or a person can experience pain talking about an unfulfilled goal because he never took that first step or didn't finish what was required. He can keep reminding himself to do such and such but it would be for naught.
Becoming a person of good character is much the same way. You can talk about being good, or you can just be good. All the fine words of a scholarly tome written by the world's greatest thinkers cannot match one person doing one simple good act.
However, when you create anything you believe would help others in a novel or useful way, there will always be spectators who are critics. Their intention is good but their execution is not. For if they took action of any significance, they would somehow understand your situation and are too interested in learning more to help them in their own situation.
Focus on what you can do instead: helping others who are interested and are eager as if they are about to engage in a neighborly conversation and activity. Do you not enjoy conversing and doing things with people like I do? Even talking about mundane matters is nonetheless rewarding, but imagine if we discuss, compare, and apply the most useful philosophies. The good that comes out of such exerises continues to make the world a better place to live.
Therefore, let the force of your words be also backed up by the power of your works. Your works would be like grown children of yours all supporting you in your old age. Few things would make you happier and have you feeling incredibly proud and satisfied.
You sometimes declare to me that you were a helper today. You exude goodness when you go out of your way to help others, when you feel good about helping others, even showing frustration when you cannot help. You not only have the tendency to share your treasure but also have no hesitation when it comes to helping others dig for theirs. It would seem to me you enjoy the discovering just as much as the discovery. I am proud and satisfied with your progress, Epictetus.